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Like Rolling Down a Hill

March 29, 2009

I drove up to Mount Pleasant to see my Sandra yesterday, which was beautiful. One of my favorite parts of the trip is usually the drive up, for I am often blessed with stretches of blue skies and gorgeous, gorgeous solitude. As I was driving yesterday morning, I was thinking about what journeying with God looks like — like in the big, giant sense that is still somehow inherently personal. I am seeing how complicated, messy, and mysterious this relationship is between the two of us; a two-way street where we aren’t always at the same intersection, but still walking somewhere on the same road. And on those occasions where I do run smack into Him, I feel like the two of us collide in this laughing, graceful pile, like rolling down a hill of grass on a summer day.

In Jeremiah 29, we are told that “we will find Him when we seek Him with all our hearts”; this verse kept running through my head on repeat as I drove. It’s another reminder that He wants to be sought, wants to be wanted, just like we do. I forget that sometimes because He’s big and God and has things like mountains and sunsets and the wings on butterflies and snowflakes for company.

Perhaps it’s less like a rulebook and more like a love story; less like a disapproving father and more like a daddy that delights in who you are. God isn’t on this journey with us to punish; He just wants to walk beside me, I think. And I don’t always let Him.

In Blue Like Jazz, Don Miller talks about walking on a road towards God, and knowing that soon, he will see the lines on His face.

I want to see those lines.
And I’m starting to.

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4 Comments leave one →
  1. March 29, 2009 10:48 pm

    miller’s opening lines in blue like jazz consist of the most memorable first paragraph i’ve read.

    also, i like your blog header. is it a caroline original?

  2. Caroline permalink*
    March 29, 2009 11:44 pm

    It is pretty great, isn’t it? I feel like someday, I should write him and Mr. Bell letters to tell them that their books are what kept me a Christian…or perhaps made me one for the first time.

    Anyway, yes, my blog header is a Caroline original. Though in my ever-changing state, I am already thinking of making another one…just to mix it up a little. šŸ™‚

  3. Misterwrite permalink
    March 30, 2009 6:16 pm

    I’m a ponderer, so I just now commented on your creativity question from a few posts ago. Sorry! You’ve probably moved on and forgotten about it.

    Mike

  4. Caroline permalink*
    March 31, 2009 8:40 am

    Haha, I haven’t moved on and forgotten. I appreciate the pondering — shows that you care about your responses and they don’t pop out like lottery tickets.

    Ponder away, Mike!

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