Choosing Between Lives
I wish I had time to do everything. Depending on the stimuli around me and the ideas and memories in front of me, what I want to do and where I want to be changes every moment. It’s not a discontentment with where I am…only a frustration that I physically cannot be everywhere at once, experiencing everything.
- I want to be here, close to my family, my favorite places, my church, my friends.
- I want to be in the Pacific Northwest, learning how to hike and live in a city that has more breweries per capita than anywhere else (I do believe Portland has this claim…or one similar.)
- I want to go to seminary/graduate school and learn more about this faith and life that I love so much.
- I want to be back in England so much sometimes that it feels like a sickness that will never go away.
I don’t know how to choose. Pray about it, I suppose. Realize that I’m barely 25 (in two and a half months) and that I have plenty of time to do all these things…I think. I realize that being in this place that I love with these people that I love could never be a waste, but I’m anxious to do it all, especially knowing that I cannot ever possibly “do it all.”
How do I choose between the lives that I long for and love?