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coming forth as gold

June 30, 2010
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“When He is at work in the north, I do not see Him;

when He turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of Him.

But He knows the way that I take;

when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.”

-Job 23:9-10

I came across this on SCL this morning and felt it settle deep into my chest. In this season in my life, when it is so easy for stress and anxiety to become daily garments, I have to come back to this truth: that even when I don’t see Him or feel Him, it doesn’t mean He’s not there. It may just be that He’s walking a few steps ahead of me.

Sometimes I think about it and I begin freaking out — I quit my job! I need to get into classes! What if my financial aid doesn’t come through? What if I have to move out of my apartment? Am I *INSANE*?

As I face all of these questions and infinitely more, I brace myself against Him even as the fire overwhelms me. I can only do this because I know I am emerging better and more myself than I was before; stronger, more faithful and better able for my story to speak that His is true.

[Photo credit here]

4 Comments leave one →
  1. navigator permalink
    July 1, 2010 12:22 am

    What about when he’s facing East or West? I bet you can’t find him then either. Why worry about it? Go have fun and be yourself! Screw it!

  2. Caroline permalink*
    July 1, 2010 8:15 am

    @ Navigator!

    Well, Job didn’t say much about the east or west. However, I’m pretty sure He’s there too. Even during moments when it feels improbable, nothing else makes sense to me.

    Thanks for the advice — I plan on being myself and having fun, so no worries on that front!

  3. Grandma permalink
    July 1, 2010 9:32 am

    Caroline…coincidently I just made myself a poster which says, “Life is what happens while we are making other plans. For this we have Jesus. Matthew 6: 33-34” Hopefully the two parallels meet somewhere because He is in it.

  4. Caroline permalink*
    July 1, 2010 1:50 pm

    @ Grandma!

    That is definitely a lesson I’ve been learning. And He’s met me in it. 🙂

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